Outside looking In.

Well lately I’ve had the feeling of being on the outside looking in. I seem to have plenty of friends but I still feel like an outsider. I've been feeling lost and alone.

Last night I decided to skip my Hope and Opportunity Meeting and Leadership training. Instead I thought I would go for some coffee and crochet for a bit. While deciding where to go I thought I could invite some one to join me, but I couldn’t think of anyone to call. I’m still looking for that one great friendship where you can call and talk about just anything, or invite out to coffee on a whim.

While at it I thought about my home life. My house is a disaster. I try to clean but when I do get it clean, the rest of the family can’t seem to help keep it that way. Just when I do start to get a hold of some space, something happens like a bday or renovations. And everything in the area to be used gets put in my clean space, only for me to try and decipher where to put it, later. At times I just want to up and leave and hope when I get back that it will all be fixed. I know this won’t happen unless I do it myself. I feel I need someone to help me (I get distracted easily). Keep me on task, help me to decide if that is something I need or want badly.

I’m in desperate need of a vacation but don’t have the $’s to do so. I just want a weekend at least where I can decide what to do and not have any demands on me. If I want to sleep in then ok, if I want to knit or crochet all day that is fine. If I want to have a movie marathon then that is fine too. If I could get some uninterrupted time to clean out a room or two and start over that would be fantastic. But it doesn’t seem to be happening. Hubby might take the kids for a little bit but they are back soon, and demanding my attention.

Well this next week doesn’t seem to be getting any less busy for me. Got 2 birthdays to deal with, Halloween, and a big bday party for the two said bdays, and a Dr’s appt. Lots of me cleaning and no help in keeping it that way.

Thanks for reading.

The long weekend

Well the weekend went by quickly. Saturday was up and took Jassy to her dance classes. While she was there, I took Miss Amanda to McD's to play in the play park. Then we stopped at Gifts and Gadgets to look for an apple peeler/corer/slicer. We found one. Yeah. Back to pick up Jassy. On the way home we picked up Seb at a friends as the rest of the afternoon was to be cleaning the house as a family. Well didn't get the whole house cleaned but a good chunk was done. Now to keep it that way.

Sunday was Seb's last regular season football game. The kids played great. Seb plays for the Spruce Grove Atom Predators. We played the Silver Raiders and the score in the end was 30-7 for the Raiders. For the last 3 plays of the game, the Raiders took a knee two times. The last play was ours and they allowed us to run the ball for a touchdown, and then the kids just stood there while we ran in the convert. That is great sportsmanship. We have only ever made one other touchdown during the season. Our kids had a great time.

Monday, Dave allowed me to sleep in. He even took the kids out for breakfast so it would be quiet. I got up and started baking some buns for Thanksgiving dinner. I made 2 dozen dinner buns and also an apple crisp with my new apple machine. The kids had fun using it. Dinner was at mom and dad's place, both my sisters showed up and most of my nephews and nieces. It was a great day.

Another Friday apon Us.

Well today is Friday and I'm still trying to clean my house and get some of the apples peeled and baked. Yesterday I got a little, and I mean little, cleaning done. But I did get in 3 apple crisps. Gave one to a friend on the otherside of my subdivision, and may drop one off with Christine if she doesn't stop by with the kids.

Took some before pictures of the house and will post them with the afters when I get the place clean. It is a big job. I just wish the kids (including the big one) would help in keeping it clean. I did have the house fairly clean 2 weeks ago.

Well its off to clean.

Apple crisp and Woodpeckers

Well I did get in some baking yesterday. I made one apple crisp. It took awhile as I had to peel and core some smaller apples. I finally got to have a bowl in the evening and so enjoyed it that I had a second one. Here's a picture of what was left.

This morning while browsing the net I could hear some banging, and thought "What are the cats doing out on the porch?" But when I looked it wasn't a cat or two, it was a woodpecker. He flew up to a little bush beside the porch. I was able to get a picture of it as it was grooming. Sorry for the blurriness but it was taken through the porch door and a screen. Didn't want to scare it away by opening the door.